Friday, June 20, 2014

Enjoy It. Because it's happening.

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As of today, I’m 20 weeks pregnant.
I’m starting to feel uncomfortable, my skin in terrible, I’m nauseous all the time, and I’m moody. Worst of all, I usually can’t sleep unless I’m on my stomach, and I can no longer lie on my stomach. I’ve been complaining a lot lately and feeling really tired. I must be annoying.
Although pregnancy hasn’t been enjoyable for me either time, I feel like this time around there’s a little voice in the back of my head telling me to shake it off and enjoy this time because it’s the last time. I’m 100% positive (and so is Chris) that this will be our last child. Three is a good number for us. We’ll each have two biological children and one step child. I’m extremely happy with three.
Because I know this is the last time I’ll ever do this, I feel like I should try to enjoy it a little more than I do. I should be deep into having a happy and healthy pregnancy and super excited for the baby, but the truth is that it doesn’t even feel real to me yet. We’re in the process of buying our first home (which is extremely stressful) and we don’t know the gender of this baby yet. I haven’t purchased a thing for this baby yet- not one single thing. I see other girls who aren’t as far along as me with completed nurseries and I start to panic. I feel like I'm not taking in everything I could be.
We find out the sex of the baby tomorrow and I'm hoping this will bring the excitement, and therefor bring the ability to let myself enjoy this temporary time in my life.
"Enjoy it. Because it's happening."- it really is, and I'm trying to learn to suck up the bad and embrace the good.
P.s. This site has the best quote photos

Saturday, June 14, 2014

November 7th 2014

We're having a baby!

It's so surreal. In less than 5 months I'll be a mom again and I cannot believe it.

The past 4 months have been absolutely insane. Everything I could have ever wanted happened all at once, and I'm thanking my lucky stars every single day for the good karma brought my way.

At the beginning of March I was hired full time at my first real grown up job. I work Monday to Friday regular daytime hours with every weekend off and even my very own desk! The best part is that Chris and I now work together. His company had an opening that he though I would be perfect for, so I applied and a week later I was in. It all happened so fast that I couldn't catch my breath.

About a month into working my new job, I started noticing how tired I was. I was stressed and emotional, but figured that was because things were really changing- we had put Holly into daycare before and after school so I was having a hard time adjusting to not seeing her as much.

There was one particular morning where I threw up and finally put the pieces together. I ran out and bought two tests which of course came up positive. We had been so busy adapting to our new life that I didn't notice I was pregnant!

It's crazy how it all worked out. At first I thought it was the worse possible timing- I just got a new job and now I have to tell them!? After I really thought about it, I realized that it truly is the best possible timing. A year after graduating, I finally have a career. I doubled my salary from my previous job which is allowing us to start saving for a house and prepare for the baby without any stress.

At 11 weeks we decided to tell our families and our girls. Everyone has been so happy and supportive, which is making the overall experience amazing. Our girls are dying to know if it's a boy or a girl (which we find out next week) and never stop talking about the baby.

I'm currently 19 weeks and so excited and antsy for this little girl or boy to make his or her arrival in 5 months!

November 7th, 2014!

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